This month 29th are our 3 years celebration of our relationship. I have think a lot of ideas hope that we can celebrate together, but i think it will be my hopeless. 29th is on Sunday..... this weekend i maybe will go to KL, so i can't see him. Its OK, i keep on thinking how can we celebrate. He off day on Thursday, so i think i can replace all the class on that day because Friday is Haji so i no need to attend the class. Who knows he is not off on Thursday, but off on Wednesday. Because his colleague want to change with him .... I was blur.... I really very angry why he didn't ask me when he want to change.....i really think highly of this date....why he don't ask me first? He knew me that i am very unhappy, he said he try to change on Friday off,but today he told me he cannot change i really disappointed......he said sorry and sorry, but what can do? Its fact.....so what...just let it pass....
Before came back the campus i have told myself must do my web page design assignment. but who know, i came back just sit in front of computer. I have watched the "gong xin ji". Ok, i told myself have to do already, but i didn't do also. I have go to the facebook don't know until what time. When i saw my clock, OH.........its already 6.00 p.m. I started sitting here from around 3.00 p.m until 6.00 p.m. But i have do nothing, what happened to me. I also don't know what i'm doing? God.......help me, i can't be like this anymore!!
I'm totally lost. I'm don't know what i'm doing..i have made a wrong decision, i not belong to this place. I feel stress and nervours at here. No friends, no one company me when i am feel sad and alone. Still how long i can cover all the things happened in my life? But i have no choose, i still have to continue my life.I can not to be a weakness, i want to be strong and more strong.
