How long I still can cover........

Why you want to treat me like that? I ask myself i have put all my attention to you, but finally what I get? I have nothing............. Did I still have to continue or give up? I told myself I will try my best, but I'm really no talent....... I will be crazy if I continue like this, please let me take my way by myself. I'm not child anymore. I have feeling, I have thinking, I have my own opinion. If yours didn't by my idea is ok. Please give me freedom, i'm already ennui to listen yours reason!!!!!!!!!!!